Dear Brooke, 
Freddy and I would like to thank you for sharing your increadible story with us. You have all of our love and support of the whole bodyrock community.

Girl, what a touching story! Thanks for sharing… Sending you a lots of hugs and support!!! Be sure HE IS WATCHING and is extremely proud of you!!!

Your story touched me a lot ….thanks to share this story so intimate & personal !
It’s true that this site is incredible, To get over it, to surpass itself…..Simply to take its life in hand !
And I’m sure Frankie ( a magnifiscient man ! ) is very proud of you, proud to not be guilty of a sad Life for you. For me it is to honour them that with LIVING our life (I lost a dear being, my son :’(  )
And I don’t think to be bored, to feel sorry for its fate is the solution. And you understand that too.
Bodyrock.tv permit us sometimes to hunt our devils, our anger…and how we feel great after.
The absence becomes accustomed…..but Zuzana & Freddy are indomtable !!! haha a little smile in this world of Brutes( or brutus !!)!!

I really love the contrast of the 2 firt pictures ! We can feel your agreement and your love with your pictures.
And I agree with you I have the same feeling with Z&F, they really seem complementary and inseparable.

All my love and support for you Brooke. <3<3<3

Crying…

Dear Brooke,
I have tears in my eyes and a smile on my face. Your story is sooo sad and on the other hand so inspiring to me… Thank you for sharing it.
As a couple you and Frankie looked very, very happy… I am sure he is waiting for you in heaven… until your arrival one day. By then he sure is proud of his georgous wife!

Best wishes for you!
Doris

Hi Brooke, 
Tears is running down my face as I read your first paragraph. Thanks for sharing your story with us. This is really motivating. And, am sure Frankie is so so proud of you. 

with love and hugs,
ching

Hi Brooke, 

Tears running down my face as I read your first paragraph .. thanks for sharing your incredible story. Thank you. 

I’m sure Frankie is so so proud of you! 

with loves and hugs..
ching

War is the most disgusting thing in the world

OMG.. such a touching storry…
I’m crying!
You’re so strong and Frankie is sure very proud of you!!!
I’m sending you lots of love!

I start criing after reading this :(…
It´s soo sad that military is still needed in this world!! Here in Germany you were allowed to decide being a part of it or not. Nowadays the business is gone.

I understand your situation, it´s soo bad losing a lovely friend or more than that (husband, family membership, ..) . I had same experience and fell in depression, too. Sadness needs his space.

But nobody wants that you feel like this, especially not Frankie. I´m sure he is very proud of you now.
You are on the right way by commending your 6 years together. That is what have to be keeped in the back of yours mind- Frankie was your “temporary life companion” -in words-he accompanied you in one part of your life!

Go on loving you, others and make the most of your precious life on earth! ;)

Love, Carol

Iam speechless…..Thank you so much for sharing this! You have no idea how many people you just inspired…I know you maybe did not mean it to be inspirational, but it was for me! You are so brave to keep going!! All I can say is Thank You !

Hello Brooke.

Sitting here reading your story and it touch me a lot…sitting here crying. I want you to know that we give you all of our love and support.
Keep on bodyrocking…..we will push you up when you are feeling down.

Love from Norway

Hi Brooke,

I’m glad you wrote this and that Zuzana posted it.  To some extent I think I know what you feel.  I also at one point had wished death would come alone and reunite me with my mother.  Fortunately for me a friend came along then just when I need one and we just chatted about life, family and stuff like that, but it was what I needed and I’m really grateful for that short little friendship.  Would give them a kidney if they need it.  :-) 

Thank you and you take care,
–Chris

God bless you. 

Thank you for your and Frankie’s service to our country. 

Sincere regrets that your family has suffered this sacrifice of a loving and honorable man.  

I cannot stop crying :( you touched me! Your so brave, phewy on anyone who ever says “can’t”

Hello Brooke – I cannot begin to comprehend the pain you have gone through losing Frankie.  I read your story this morning, cried and have thought about you all day.  What you had was special and he would be very proud of how you have pulled through this I’m sure. Take care and thank you for sharing this with us, its made some of what I had considered to be problems seem very trivial.  Sx

dear Brooke, I try to imagine what you have been through. I felt like crying but did not because I am not allowed to in front of your courage. I want to send you the biggest smile EVER, a big HUG, tell you I find you beautiful and you have the soul of a fighter. Take good care of yourself because I am sure a devoted husband as yours was, must hope you are doing good and embracing life as you guies always did together.
Lots of love,
zouzou

I don’t know what i’d do if i lost my husband, your story was so inspirational and it made me want to cry. Your amazing and just keep on pushing ahead. You made me realize how life is short, so don’t waste it. Your in my thoughts and prayers. Take care!

I too was a Seal Wife… HOOYAH Brooke. He’s now dead also, but I’m not a widow. So, I sort of know what that’s like. My heart goes out to you… it does get easier, as you have discovered. He will be in your mind everyday. And you WILL see him again, and it will be a joyous reunion. 

God bless the 2 of you for serving our country. Thank you for sharing your story

Such a Beautiful Love, it is obvious in your word & pictures. I pray God’s Blessings on you sweetheart. You are beautifully made from the inside out. Thank you for sharing this great Love with us. You are a great warrior just like your Frankie was : ) Stay strong baby girl, again Thank you for sharing. Keep Bodyrockin it’s great for body, mind & soul. Big((( hugs))) & lots of Love flowing your way.

Dear Brooke,

I read your post and couldn’t stop crying…I went to your blog and it made it worse. I can’t pretend to have words to comfort you or even begin to imagine what each day brings for you…

I can write to you that I admire your courage, strength, and tenacity to face each day. I admire what you wrote about your interview with CNN, and what that ONE question really meant for you…it’s tough because people do forget, but all the things you are doing to keep his memory alive is inspiring. don’t stop because through that healing will come, and it appears as if that is what he would want for you…your young, beautiful and have a lot to offer other people. While the path your on may seem lonely(as you wrote about on your blog) at times, keep reminding yourself that you are not ever alone, because we never are!

 We are so incredibly blessed to find true love once(the kind of love you describe in your blog), but for it to come around twice- well that’s just a true miracle. I know it will happen for you…thank you for sharing such an inspirational story of love and courage.

You guys were, are, and always will be a beautiful couple. Your story makes me want to cry. I can only imagine the pain in losing the love of your life…He died a hero and that’s what he’ll always be.

I’m so sorry for your loss. As an Army wife, the fear is always there. My biggest fear. I couldn’t ever imagine a life without my best friend. Your husband is a hero and will be forever remember in many people’s hearts. Stay strong and live life. One day you two will be reunited. For now he is looking down on you and is proud that you have managed to pull your life back together after such a huge part was taken from you.God Bless!

Brooke, your life story has brought me to tears. Can I just say that I am sooo sorry for ther loss you’ve experienced at such a young age. I can’t imagine what it would be like to lose the love of my life. I worry about hinm every time he leaves the house to go to work; he’s a police officer. Keep strong and best of luck with your journey.
P.S…I LUV the pic of the two of you covered in mud, classic!! You guys look soooOOOO happy and in love………
Tammy

Brooke, 
I cannot imagine losing my husband.  The pain from losing his mother in March was unbearable, so losing your “right arm” must be tenfold.  Reading your story about how you came back, leaving Brutus behind brings tears to my eyes.  You will be in my thoughts all day and much more.  Z is right, you have so much support in the Bodyrock community.  Thank you for sharing your story and I hope doing so gave you even more strength.

Brooke, 
I cannot imagine losing my husband.  The pain from losing his mother in March was unbearable, so losing your “right arm” must be tenfold.  Reading your story about how you came back, leaving Brutus behind brings tears to my eyes.  You will be in my thoughts all day and much more.  Z is right, you have so much support in the Bodyrock community.  Thank you for sharing your story and I hope doing so gave you even more strength.

very touching, thank you for sharing best wishes to you!

:’( Im literally tearing up right now.  You are such a strong person, I can’t even imagine what it must have been like. You are an inspiration to all of us, that after all that you are still able to get up and smile, workout, and love life.  

keep it up <3

ps my sister is in Afghanistan right now, in the Air Force

Dear Brooke,
With tears in my eyes..I”m wishing you the very best…my thoughts and prayers go out to you…You are a beautiful woman, inside and out…thank you for being brave enough for sharing your story with us…Keep on living..that’s how you honor Frankies memories..He is smiling down at you and sooo proud of  you as we all are…Keep Bodyrocking…..xoxo

Brooke,

I hesitated about reading this because I knew it will make me cry. My husband deployed to Afghanistan twice and I always feared that he will not make it home as he promised, physically okay. He did come home safely both times, but while he was gone, I witnessed close friends of mine lose their husbands while in Afghanistan. The pain that I felt for them was nothing compared to what they felt and for this reason, I have a deep appreciation for military wives and widows.

One of my closests friends lost her husband on March, 22, 2010. He was buried at Arlington Cemetery and I have seen her struggle with learning to live without him. She’s gone through being upset with her husband for leaving her, to being depressed, to finally starting to cope with it.

I won’t tell you that I understand what you are going through, but I can definitely relate to you. I am glad to read that you are beginning to enjoy life as you did when Frankie was alive. I am sure he is very proud of that.

I write this with tears on my face because I wish that you or anyone else would have to experience the loss of their spouse. Yet here you are, learning to deal with it and I am sure that you will become so much more stronger. I will tell you what I always tell my friend, Frankie will always be with you, guiding you and protecting you. He is there everytime you accomplish any of your goals, he is even there when you feel at your lowest. He might not be there physically but he is there in spirit and I am sure that there are small ways in which he shows this to you.

I will go check out your blog. You really are the first Bodyrocker that has awoken all of these emotions in me…

PS. My friend is also part of the American Widow Project. It has helped her tremendously.

Stay strong & keep on smiling. =0)

Brooke,

Thank you for sharing your story and you’re a strong woman. I can’t even imagine my life if I lost my husband. But you prove yourself that you actually strive to be better and make him proud of you instead.

We all are proud of you!!

Dearest Brooke,

Frankie’s courage & bravery will keep his eternal light shining forever as he watches over you like a Guardian Angel :) I believe he’s still with you. I admire your strength for I wouldn’t know what to do if I ever lost my love. Thank you for this touching story and may you find inner peace knowing that he is in a better place.

Thank you for sharing your story Brooke. I am so sorry for your loss. You are such a strong woman… Your Frankie is definitely beaming with pride for you – just as much as you are for him. 

Beautiful pictures. xxx

I am sitting here and crying…!!!! thank you for sharing your wonderful and touching story, dear bodyrocker brooke! you are such a strong, powerful and beautiful woman!!!

we support you when you feel down or need some encouragement!!!
best wishes for you and lots of love!

Hi Brooke,

Your story made me cry. I’m so happy that you have new goals. Zuzana and Freddy are amazing people. Their hearts are so big and so loving. I hope love grabs your whole heart again. That love will overflow your heart. You go girl! Don’t let anything catch your goal. So much love I’m sending from me to you. xxx

I relly can’t believe that I’m reading your story today. Tears are running down my face right this moment. Exactly today ten years ago my mum died in a bad accident on the street going with her bike to work in the morning. She was the sweetest soul I’ve ever known and reading your story is soo touching seeing the pictures of you and your husband. You have to know that we are all together in this and have to help each other. Bless all of you bodyrockers and please don’t let one day pass without smiling and being proud of yourselves. This life is a gift and we have to live it to the fullest. Lots of love and hugs dear Brooke

*speechless* 

“War is an ugly thing, but not the ugliest of things. The decayed and
degraded state of moral and patriotic feeling which thinks that nothing
is worth war is much worse. The person who has nothing for which he is
willing to fight, nothing which is more important than his own personal
safety, is a miserable creature and has no chance of being free unless
made and kept so by the exertions of better men than himself.” –John Stuart Mill

God bless you, Brooke, and may Frankie’s brave soul rest in peace. He will forever be a hero.

You are shining in these pictures and in your words. I hope you find light in the darkest places.

Namaste,
Laura

Oh, God, my worst nightmare. I can’t stop crying for you, I can’t imagine going through what you did. And I can’t go to your site, because it will most likely turn me into an inconsolable wreck before my workout! You and your fellow American Widows will be in my thoughts and prayers today. I am so sorry for your loss and so inspired by your spirit.

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Please continue to stay strong for you and for him! Keep on rockin!!! <3

dear brooke i´m so sorry for you it is a bad situation cause not only you loss important person  inthem lives… i live in spain and i have family in the army and the last month a friend dead there in afganistan for us it was so hard…. we try to continue con our lives but alwayz she will be with us…
you can do it … go ahead brooke….. do it for him … 

Dear Brooke, 

I’m sitting here speechless and crying. 

Thank you for sharing this touching story. 
I wish you all the best.

thank you for sharing your story. it touched me and moved me in a special way, and brought me in a lighter shade of light, thank you. “your joy is your sorrow unmasked”.

Brooke,

Thank you for sharing your story it brought tears to my eyes. I can’t imagine the pain that you went through and continue to go through. I’m very thankful for unselfish people like Frankie who put their life on the line for us. Your story touches close to home as my nephew is in afghanistan right now. I know Frankie is proud of you for getting yourself back up. My heart goes out to you and we bodyrockers will be here to support you.

Brooke-

Thank you for sharing your touching and inspirational story. It’s funny that this was posted today because NBC had a spot on the news about the AWP this afternoon, and it really got to me.

With all the politics about war these days I feel like so many don’t realize that real people’s lives are at stake every day, and unfortunately your husband paid the ultimate price for our country. And then what happens to those they left behind? What happens to the young families, the wounded? The emotional toll is so great, and I am so glad that AWP has allowed military widows an outlet not only to share their pain but to start living and loving life again.

I can’t imagine losing my husband. He too is the love of my life and I thank God every day for him. Your group, the AWP really struck home for me in a special way. I wish you peace in your heart and a lifetime of happy fitness. I’m sure your husband is looking down at you and is extremely proud of you, as you are of him.

Best to you,

Mary

Oh Brooke I can hardly see as I am typing this as I am bawling my eyes out!I’m an Army fiance and my partner has been over to afghanistan twice so your story has really pulled at my heart strings! I think you are incredible and those pictures of you and your husband are beautiful I have bookmarked your blog. Thank you so much for sharing you are amazing!!!
<3 Hayley

It is a very powerful and meaningful you were able to blog your cherished memories with your husband since you were first married and continue to do so. You will be in my prayers Brooke love and blessing
<3

Bless you and your amazing husband.  It is people like you and like him that gives others hope in the troubled times our world is in right now.  I come from a military family, and my father was a Navy SEAL.  I am positive he would have made an amazing SEAL brother.  Thinking about you and your struggle.  You are a truly beautiful soul!

Dear Brooke,

Thank you for having the courage to share your story – and thank you Zuzana & Freddy for sharing it with the community.

When I lost my mom a few years ago I lost my best friend. But I was lucky because she taught me that death is not the end, it’s just the horizon we can’t see past. Your Frankie still IS, spirit never dies. We just borrow these bodies for a short while. Know your love is eternal and you are always together. I just know he is SO proud of you for going through what you had to go through, but then pulling yourself together. Taking care of yourself is the best way you can honor him. 

Good job girl! We’re all so very very proud of you!

I am choked & sad after seeing you & your husband smiling , kissing & then reading your testimony.What stood out to me & put a smile on my face was that you experienced the best 6 years of true love in your marriage like a lifetime. There are many marriages that lack that even being together 15 years or more.Know you are blessed to have lived & shared your lives in a beautiful way & with courage.

Brooke,
Thank you so much for sharing your story.  It’s rare that I’m brought to tears, but you just made me bawl for a few minutes.  I know that Frankie is so proud of you, and I’m proud to be a member of the same Bodyrock community as you!  I’m going to try to be like you and put a big smile on my face every time I finish a workout!  
Much love,
Pril

That took me to tears……

Dear Bodyrocker Brooke,
 My tears kept falling down as I was reading your story here and in your blog. I wanted to write you a comment earlier but was busy with the kids.
 I would like to thank you so much for writing this story and sharing with us.You are very strong woman and Frankie would be so extreamly proud of you because you are not giving up in your life :) Reading your story this afternoon truely motivated me to get up and get moving. My frustation I had was nothing compare to what you had gone through.  Please know that you have our love and support from this community. Take good care of yourself Brook .We’re here for you.Lots of love and hug~~ Ann :)

Dear Brooke, A picture tells a thousand words:) Just by looking at your photos I feel the intense love you two had for one another. I am so sorry you had to lose such a beautiful man, your husband…

I can’t imagine having to deal with something as heartbreaking as this, thank-you for sharing your painful story. May God give you strength to go on without Frankie till you met again in the spiritual world were he will be waiting for you with open arms:)

Sending love and kisses XoXo

You are a strong woman. I’m sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story! :) and welcome to Bodyrock!!!

“It is forbidden to kill; therefore all murderers are punished unless they kill in large numbers and to the sound of trumpets.” 
Voltaire

 I know it may sound hurtful for some people, so please forgive me… But this subject is so close and hurtful to me that I am sorry, but I am going to say it.The war is killing, that what it is and “moral and patriotic feeling” is something that politicians use to make the war glorious, because if they say : go and kill, because we need land, money, power, weapon,etc, nobody would stir a finger.I think the word “patriotic” is very deceptive. what is patriotic? To love your own country? But what is your country? Where is the real border? I could never understand this – why to divide people in categories – Russians, Americans, Italians, etc. What is the point? When I was a child, I asked my Granny, whose father was killed in the World War II, the smartest question of my life : Why are men who kill on the streets are imprisoned, but soldiers who kill many people are praised?  I am willing to fight for myself, for my family, for people whom I love, but i will never be deceptive by politicians who say we NEED war, no, we DO NOT need it, I do not believe in words, i believe in people, in humans. And I will not kill a man just because he is of different nation which is supposedly “enemy”.I know it may sound too naiive and idealistic, but if we all understood that there is no border, no division between people, that people are people not nations, than the wars would eventually stop. it is my little dream.Again i am really really sorry if my words hurt somebody, i just needed to say it….

Thanks for your story, I cried while I was reading your story, you’re a fantastic girl and I have so much respect!
Thanks for sharing

Thank you for sharing your story.  I’m glad that I read it, I just wish that I hadn’t done it just before walking out the door for work – I’m a mess now… still, thank you for sharing.

hugs

I totally agree with you.

uggg. Thank you Brooke-thank you because after reading your story, I realized how life is so valuable and how i need to spend more fun corky time with my husband. we get so caught up in life’s responsibilities that we forget to live it. Also, I once saw a book with the cover, “how God turns hurt to blessing” something like that? Up till reading your story, I understand that title. Never read the book-but just reading how you have been a great blessing to all those other women who gave up on themselves. Thank you for being a source of motivation for me:) Thank you so much.

First of all, I’m so sorry for your loss:(…thanks for sharing your story with us bodyrockers…not only your husband was brave and loyal but you are as well…the love both of you shared is a treasure so valuable not even death can take it away from you..I bet that he is really proud of you too because you are trying to be strong and moving on with your life which, i’m pretty sure, is exactly what he would’ve wanted it..for all of us  who at least once in our life faced a terrible loss, is not easy, I know…we have days when we feel like we are ok but some others are not so easy…you are an inspiration to us, I think you are amazing and I respect you so much for overcoming this, the way you did it…and are still doing it..I will check the site you referred to zuzana because you military widows, are somehow heroes too!..God Bless you all!!

Thanks for sharing your story.  You are such a strong, inspirational woman and I’m sure you will continue to inspire and help people the rest the of your life. I’m so sorry you lost your husband.  I can’t even imagine the hurt and pain.  I have the greatest respect for the brave men and women willing to put on this countries uniform.  Your husband is a man who showed the kind of courage and loyalty only a true hero could. I pray that God blesses you and your family and thank Him for your husbands courage and life. You’re a brave and beautiful woman. I know you will go on to do great things!

Your story really touched me. Keep up the great work! 

Thanks for sharing, you are very strong and beautiful woman inside and out. I wish all the best for you!

yep, crying as well …….. so sorry for your loss.  thankyou for reaching out, thankyou for going on, thankyou for getting up and getting going, thankyou for not quitting, thankyou for caring.  I can’t imagine at all what you have experienced but my heart goes out to you.  God has more for you, and things my seem so pointless at times after all that you have gone through, but you are one person who has so much to offer the world, and your journey does not stop here…God bless you  and keep you and make His face to shine brightly on you and give you His peace.

Thank you so much for sharing your heart! Thank you to your amazing husband who gave so unselfishly so we may be free!  Thank you for allowing Frankie to live on thru you and touch lives even though his was cut so tragically short! You are such an insparation to so many and I am just sending prayers and hope your way!!!  Thank you and God bless!!!

Dear Brooke,
you let me without words…
You’re a great example for anyone…keep on bodyrocking and loving life!
My best hug is for you, love from Italy.

Dear Brooke,
you let me without words…
You’re a great example for anyone…keep on bodyrocking and loving life!
My best hug is for you, love from Italy.

Hi Brooke
My name is Claire, I live in France, and just want to tell you I am so sorry for your loss. You made an incredibly beautiful couple, inside and out. I’m sure Frankie is as proud of you as you are of him. Just wanted to say you story touched me very much. I hope you can soon feel up to a new relationship that will make you complete again, until the day (I hope in a very long time, after a very full life) you can be with Frankie again. I also hope for you you get to be a mom, a child’s is a love second to none, it can made you reborn.
Take care of yourself,
Claire.

Hi Brooke
My name is Claire, I live in France, and just want to tell you I am so sorry for your loss. You made an incredibly beautiful couple, inside and out. I’m sure Frankie is as proud of you as you are of him. Just wanted to say you story touched me very much. I hope you can soon feel up to a new relationship that will make you complete again, until the day (I hope in a very long time, after a very full life) you can be with Frankie again. I also hope for you you get to be a mom, a child’s is a love second to none, it can made you reborn.
Take care of yourself,
Claire.

Zuzanne and Freddy,thank you for sharring this.Brooke,I’m so happy for you that you were able to break thru the walls of sadness and despair and your strenght is amazing.I am so sorry you lost the love of your life.I can’t even imagine loosing my husband.I hope the sun only shines on you from now on and you are only blessed with good days.Thank you for your story and the pictures.You look so happy and perfect together:)…and yes,I think he is watching you train and everytime it seems impossible,you gives you a little push or who knows,maybe he’s right there next to you doing the same workout:) Lots of love from Vancouver 
Monika

Well we feel very privileged and honoured that you chose to share your story with all of us :)

Brooke, thank you for sharing your story. My husband was deployed over there for seven months a few years ago. He left five days after our wedding. You have bravely survived what was the very thing I dreaded every day of those seven months. Very few people really understand the strength it takes to say goodbye to your partner and live every day that follows not wanting to wake up for fear of hearing that knock on the door. I am SO sorry you had to go through that, but I am equally happy that you have pushed through it and are bravely working hard to take care of yourself. Thinking of you and your bravery, and wishing you new love and a renewed zest for life. Much love from one mil wife to another. ♥

Brooke, thank you for sharing your story. My husband was deployed over there for seven months a few years ago. He left five days after our wedding. You have bravely survived what was the very thing I dreaded every day of those seven months. Very few people really understand the strength it takes to say goodbye to your partner and live every day that follows not wanting to wake up for fear of hearing that knock on the door. I am SO sorry you had to go through that, but I am equally happy that you have pushed through it and are bravely working hard to take care of yourself. Thinking of you and your bravery, and wishing you new love and a renewed zest for life. Much love from one mil wife to another. ♥

really admire you, Brooke you’re an inspiration to me. Sometimes we think that our little problems can’t be resolve but always there is someone who suffers more, keep the nice job, Frankie is very proud of you
blessings :)

Speechless……you are both hero’s to me. Bless you and Frankie, I did not know him, but now I will never forget him. 

Hi Brooke,

Life can throw us a real negative thing such as you experienced and it’s the inner strength these bad days test. I feel you made it thru with grace and amazing strength!  I also think it is our obligation to thank you for your post and for what you share of Frankie’s life!  You strengthen the community and make it just that much better a place.

Be well and again thank you,
–Chris

Dear Brooke,

You had me tearing up. I’m sorry for you loss. I think your husband is a hero and chose an honorable life. My brother in law is deploying to Afgan in October, he used to be stationed in Hawai about a year ago. I’m worried for him and how my sister is going to deal. If you have any other web sites or blogs that could be of some help to my sister I would love to know? My prayers go out to you.

-Sharon

thank you for sharing your inspirational story.

-team hawaii m/

 Brook, 
I am just so glad that you came to Bodyrock, it is good to have you as part of this community and I am happy that you had it to turn to when you were at your lowest. It must have been so hard to find something to give you inspiration, but Zuzana and Freddy are so full of love and motivation, they give so much here.  Anytime you need someone to chat up, there are so many of us that support you, never hesitate to reach out.  You are an inspiration, of course no one wants to lose their loved ones, but it is a part of life that we will all face.  It is inspirational to see you push back into life, and to open your heart again.  I will remember you when times seem tough, you are never alone.  Much love to you.KatieColorado