Ever wonder what your life would be like if you did things differently?Where would you be if you made a different choice in what college you attended? What would have happened if you took Job A over Job B? What would your life be like now if you hadn't taken the chance, and gone out on the date with your NOW husband? Would you be single now? Would you have kids? Would you be happy? I often think about this. I don't have regrets in life, because my decisions were indeed MY decisions, good or bad. BUT, there are times when I think about where my life was headed 15 years ago, and where my life is right now. Everyone (for the most part), has a dream for themselves OR a goal they wish to accomplish in life. Some of us actually reach that goal or get to live out that dream. But for many of us, it's about taking that road we THINK will lead us there, but taking turns along the way, that in the end change our path. These paths we take, are they by chance or choice? I think it's a little of both. I always tried in life to never 'settle' for anything. If I didn't like where I was, I got out of it...QUICK. I feel my experiences in life have absolutely shaped who I am and the values I keep. The losses, the gains, the good times and the bad, all have made me the person I am today. After studying acting in high school and college, I came to NYC right after to pursue it, WHICH MANY OF US DO! I enjoyed it. I got to work along side some great actors, and even got to play a 'nurse' now and again on a couple NYC soap operas. But in the end, what I thought I would find pursuing my dreams since I was a little girl of 5, was not really how it turned out to be. It was indeed quite different. A lot of WAITING. A lot of HOPING. And a lot of LETDOWNS. Me realizing that this MAY not be what I was meant to do, came with a lot of fear. Feelings of failure. Embarrassment. But through it all, I recognized one thing I was really good at. Relating to people. Helping others. Listening to others. I had to experience this hard reality check about my 'dreams' in life, to get me to realize what I was 'born' to do. My father was diagnosed with colon cancer when I was in college, and I lost several family members early on in life due to health struggles and battles. I knew I never wanted that for myself. I wanted to be as healthy as I could. I wanted to help others achieve this as well. But never did I think this would lead me to a field in health and fitness. I had my eyes on the prize of acting in NYC or LA. But was that dream based on myself and who I am, OR based on what I THOUGHT my life would be like as an 'actor'. I had to go thru everything I went thru to get me to where I am today. I had to make decisions about my life and live with them. Is this my destiny? I am still not sure. I know I do love what I do and don't consider it a 'job'. My life now as a personal trainer/ fitness instructor is my passion. I can say I truly LOVE what I do. I don't second guess it either, or my decisions that got me to where I am today. I really do have MORE now in life with my family, my husband, my children, and my career, then I ever thought I could have. I am blessed. In life, you will have many obstacles thrown at you. You will deal with sorrow and heartache. You will deal with ups and downs, which may make you second guess your decisions. May take you to places you never thought you'd go. But if you believe in yourself, and recognize these events as stepping stones more so then roadblocks, you will overcome them and succeed.
Whether by 'chance' or by 'choice', your decisions will lead you to YOUR own destiny in life. That is something you can definitely count on.
"In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person we are. So just live. Make mistakes. Have wonderful memories. But never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you're going."