One Woman's Struggle With Eating Disorders, and How She Finally Found Balance

Eating disorders affect an alarming amount of adolescents, and Brittany Burgunder, author of "Safety in Numbers: From 56 to 221 Pounds, My Battle with Eating Disorders" is one of them. "At the beginning of 2009, it looked as though I had finally lost my seven-year battle with anorexia and exercise addiction," Burgunder notes in an essay for Elite Daily. eating disorders Burgunder spent most of her teenage and young adult life battling anorexia, binging and bulimia. Bullied as a child with no friends, she turned to perfectionism in school and in athletics as a means of filling a void, but that path only lead her to then focus on perfecting her figure. She soon looked in the mirror and only saw a heavy person, so she worked tirelessly to shed unnecessary pounds. She was constantly kicked out of treatment centers for noncompliance, and eventually given a death sentence by doctors. Her family even planned her funeral. Weighing in at a low of 56 pounds, she had to fight for her life to stay alive. "August 2009 would change my life forever. I binged. After many years of controlling, resisting and depriving myself of food, I gave in. It was an exhilarating, wonderful and scary sensation. I didn’t know how to stop, Burgunder says. She ended up gaining an excessive amount of weight, making her too large for her frame. To counteract that, she then used bulimia and laxatives to thin back out. She was entangled in a vicious cycle of body dysmorphia, with no healthy relationship to food and no self-esteem to get her there. "By the middle of 2010, I hit rock bottom again; this time, on the opposite side of the scale. All I could see in the mirror was a stranger, but the scale confirmed my illusion and worst nightmare as the digital number '221' flashed before me." But, despite all odds, Burgunder came out of a darkness she had long been lost in.  "After 10 years filled with restricting, over-exercising, binging, laxatives, colonics, hospitals, treatment centers, fat camps, psychiatric wards and hopelessness, I have taken all the diaries I have kept over the years of struggle, and turned them into a story of hope." “Safety In Numbers: From 56 To 221 Pounds, My Battle With Eating Disorders” is a real-time account of the chaos, depression, destruction of opportunities, obsessions, rituals, treatments and family traumas I have had to go through," she explains of her memoir which will be coming out in early 2016. "Now, I am coming out on the other side. I want to share with others the personal darkness and torture I experienced while I was trapped by my eating disorder, and I want to demonstrate there is always hope to get better and recover." What do you think of Brittany Burgunder's story? Source: Elite Daily  

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