A few years ago, after I had achieved my 45 pound weight loss, I was rocking some killer abs. I was so excited to see abs for the first time in years -- not to mention that my love handles had totally disappeared. I snapped this photo below and I immediately began realizing one thing: I wasn't healthy. "What? Why wouldn't you be healthy with abs?" You might ask. Well, this look wasn't good enough for me. I wanted MORE. I wanted skinnier. I wanted less body fat. I wanted more definition.
I got so caught up in my new body that I was obsessed with everything that went into it. However, I easily became underweight for my height from being on a strict calorie counting (obsessed) diet. I didn't go to the gym because I was afraid of getting "bulky", so even though I had abs, I was still "skinny fat." I lacked the energy to go to work where I had to stand for 8 hours a day. I was emotionally tired and feeling drained non-stop. [bctt tweet="The Selfie That Made Me Realize I Took "Healthy" Too Far"]
I was a total mess inside and outThere was a point in my past when I took this whole healthy thing way too far. For example, I was once thrown a birthday party at my clinic that I worked as a nurse at, and I didn't even eat the birthday cake that they had gotten me. Why? I was afraid that one bite would turn me fat again. Lame, I know right? I woke up one day and learned to do things the right way, even if it meant sacrificing my abs. I finally realized that those abs were not from hard work, they were from deprivation.
- I didn't have cheat meals.
- I didn't have sweets.
- I didn't eat carbs.
- I didn't eat past a certain time every night.
- I didn't eat more than 1,200-1,400 calories a day.
- I didn't workout.
So much of all of that became.. well.. boring. I decided life was way to short to worry about having perfect abs everyday. So, I gave in!
- I allowed myself 1-2 cheat meals per week.
- I eat sweets every now and then.
- I LOVE CARBS!!!!!!
- I eat right before bedtime if I am still hungry.
- I eat around 2,300 calories per day.
- I workout 4-5 days a week.